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ok, ok, it's a VERY lame excuse for all this time I didn't do anything. I was mostly rerolling, re-rerolling and re-re-rerolling like crazy, trying all the mods I found interesting in Nexus, modifying a bit my Orcimer in game so those flimsy Altmers wouldn't look me down (), well... Lot of very... Useless things x)

I'd like to create something with the creation kit, for the moment, I'm a bit lost with the process of exporting meshes... Ok, ok, I promise, I'll try to be back for real to Deviantart.

... And that's probably why I'm going back to drawing. The funny part is that while I'm thinking about drawing more of my toons in Champions Online, I'm getting really BORED with the game itself. I connect more for the friends than to actually play.

*sigh*

I probably need to go somewhere else for some times, just to learn to appreciate again the game.

Oh and I need to draw...

Badly...

This entry concerns all the people I fav regularly (and sometimes at a furious speed) without letting any comment. It may concerns 98% of all my fav.

I know it's rude, it may seems like I want to attract attention, that's not my purpose. I don't know what to say, any comment at this point seems useless to me when I want to say something on all those amazing devarts. A "wow !" is pathetic enough...

Don't feel obliged to let a message to me, too. I know it can be really awkward.

Why I fav you ?

Because your art inspires me. I love plenty of styles and when something catches my eye, even a detail, all I think is "Impressive ! I would have never think of doing this !". It's thank to all of you that I can really say I'm improving in my stuff. Everyday, I take time to go though my fav, scrutinizing every pic, asking myself "If I want to make something with some kind of action, what kind of composition should I make, what kind of colors should I choose ?". It became an habit for me to first find some kind of basis through all my fav gallery before beginning a pic.

You're much more to me than a simple "fav", as I said, you're an inspiration, but also a purpose for maybe someone, one day, will tell me : your art inspires me. This day, I'll be really proud of myself.

... and buying the Trapcode suite ! Well, I had it before but on an old After, I bought the more recent adobe softs I needed : after, photoshop and illustrator (ang got flash and Premiere too) and decided to updgrade my trapcode plugins too.

Now it's like I have this BIGHUGEFREAKINGENORMOUS EYE on me giving me flashlight signs "HEY ! MOVE YOUR LAZY ASS NOW !!! YOU DON'T HAVE ANY BULLSHIT EXCUSES NOW !!!! DO SOMETHING !!!!"

.... And I'm freaking nervous about WHAT to do with all of this. I mean, for the moment, I didn't get any work at job that justifies the use of these softs, and I don't have lot of work too, just 2 days once a week... But... But... What to begin with ?! I have loads of projects and the conviction that it'll probably be some kind of "FAIL !!! MWUAHAHAHAHA !!!"...

I'll try to set my mind definitively on something next week, I promise !

THAT is what happens when a strike of EDF is followed by a real power failure.

THAT is what happened to my computer...

and...

THAT is the reason I'm drowning myself in games such as Fable 2 and 3. I want to cry, definitely, I'd like to hope I'll be able to have all my files back.

6 hours left.

I was working on a fanart of my Ankh, real this one, with creation of this damn qliphotic helmet when it happened (my brother said 3D renders tend to "block" the uninterruptible power source, so it didn't work at all when the power failure happened). There was just the middle "cape", hair and the tattoos to add. Oh and I was beginning a new version of Derviche Devil, because her costume changed so much. I was using lots of tentacles for a "Cthulhu" feeling. And last I was also working on a new fanart of Green Pom Pom, I wanted to make something more like Halo (she has a new costume complete with armor, robots and orbital canon!).

And now of course, I'd like to make a fanart of my hero in Fable 2.

I'm on the verge of crying.

My only ray of sunshine is my artbook of Megamind which finally arrived.

.... I'd like to make a fanart of Megamind now...